CHRISTMAS EVE

I love Christmas, it is the best holiday ever, I even like it more than Halloween. Right now, i am getting ready to go to rob's family's for Christmas eve festivities, which will include yummy food, presents and hopefully some Home Alone, his nephews haven't seen it yet. Yesterday was pretty awesome, Rob and his room mates did their present exchange, I did pretty good. I'm really excited for tomorrow, i'm making desert, i kinda wanna make a yule log but i donno if i'm ready for that task yet. Then presents with momma! I haven't really been excited about christmas until maybe last Friday when we finally got our Christmas tree. Sometimes the holidays just get too stressful, you have to be here for two days, and then the day after you need to go see these three people. I'm hoping when i'm older and have a family of my own it wont be a stressful, and people will let us make up our own mind about what we will do.
Well back to getting ready for christmas. as soon as i get batteries for my camera there will be pretty pictures.
<3. Merry Christmas everyone

CHEESE PLEASE

Okay you guys, so you may not know this but i absolutly LOVE cheese. I really like parm and cheeder. and i have a grilled cheese at least every other day, if not more. It is so yummy and i love finding new cheeses that i  like. I really like cheese fondue too, especially when its alittle spicy. I think cheese is the most amazing thing every invented and i thinmk i'm gfoing to go have some right now.

not

I should be writing a paper...but im bored of it. so i'm doing this. I am so overwhellmed right now its pretty crazy. Every thing is due this week. AH. But school is done in 1 week i will be officially done. Sometimes I wish i could go back in time and just be a kid again, it was all so easy. You could just go to the mall on fridays and then you're life was okay. Back then everything seemed so serious, but really it was just so simple. Now things are even more complicated and more intense. I miss that alot, but one day it will get easy again. 

oh well. more soon. now i have to finish this paper. 

Non practicing

Today i went to a Spanish Mass, this was the first time i have even been to regualar mass in more than a year. For some time now i have been thinking about going back to Catholic Masses, but not really after today. It isn't about some grudge on the Catholic Chuch, it just doesn't seem to do anything for me. Today, hearing it in a different language was funny because i didn't even know when to stand up or sit down. It is just an imporant part of mass, i just got lost trying to remember what to do. Even when i went to English mass, i didn't ever learn anything, it was just reading from the bible for about 30 mins, 7-10 mins of "explaining" and then 15 mins of singing. At Vintage, the church i've been kinda going to, its much more learning about what the bible is actually saying. I love that. I really need to go back to church, just need someone to go with me. haha. It feels good to finally come to an conclusion about ones religion, its kind of a big part of your life. Now if i could only figure out the rest...

What?

Somewhere along the way lately I have totally lost myself. I wake up in the morning and am just so ashamed of the person i have become. The things that used to mean the world to me are starting to slip away and i am sinking into a bottomless pit with no way out. I can't remember the last time I woke up and i was already in a good mood. That used to happen so often. I really need to get back there, but i don't know if it's possible. How am I supposed to pick myself up out of this, i'm burried. Now that cornhuskin is over I don't even have an excuse for my distance. I want so badly to be with someone so badly right now. But i can't, I'm stuck. I just hope that someone knows how deeply sorry I am, and that one day I will be back to normal. One day all of this will be in the past and I will be able to see clearly agian. 

For now, i guess i should start trying to dig myself out of this mess.

Soon.

One day (soon?) i will not have to live pay check to pay check. I have been trying really hard to have alittle something set away for a rainy day. Sadly it never happends. Last year we did really well with planning means and buy grocieres so we could save money. It just really stinks how much money someone does spend on food...all most of all of mine.  oh well. soon i will get a real job with a real paycheck.

phew. i'm tired

First in awhile

"Shippensberg"-CKY

You know what makes me happy

The things that make you sad

The feel that I controls absorbed by the radio jag

I found my indecision

The product of the media grime

The feel that I control have you press rewind

And now I'm on the wings

Hoping that you'll hear

Don't bother to respond

You love to hear me again

And when the sun beams down all of your lies

Close, close, yeah close the light

The sky's all grey in the barracks I know I'm a lousy hero

The classic act of feeling is that of a memory

And you are peering down through parascopic eyes

Close, close, yeah close (conscience)

I try to hide the fact that I'm afraid

We'll drive the band to Shippensburg and hope that we get played

And in the end of a season the voices turn it all off

The things that were so meaningless 'til the next one comes along

I try to hide the fact that I'm afraid

We'll drive the band to Shippensburg and hope that we get played

I  miss waiting outside in the cold. I miss pretty much skipping everyone in line. I miss the smell of smoke and beer in a huge room filled with people.I miss everyone moving to the same beat, everything else just melting away as everyone says the same words and thinks of how they speak just to them. I miss waiting outside meeting them and actually seeing them in real life. I miss the car rides home with a new cd. I miss getting lost downtown...twice. I miss the sky lines. I miss the plane sized bottles of vodka. I miss the late night talks. I miss new things. I miss the old times.

Sometimes I miss you.

Back

So now i offically feel like i am back in school

Projects are assigned

bank account is going down

and here i am...blogging

It's GOOD to be back.

It's good to be able to go shopping carlessly because you don't have "serious" bills to pay

it's good to be able to play hookie for a day and not have to "call in sick"

It's so good to be able to stay up late and sleep in

Its SOOO good to have the onyx paid for and Oct 20th here i come.

On the downside, now you're supposed to be independent. You can't depend on your parents anymore, you can't keep turning to other people to figure stuff out for you. And that scares the hell out of me. I donno if im strong enough to handle it on my own, handle anything really. Nothing is really scarier than being on your own, execpt not being able to control it. I don't really know where these thoughts come from, but they have been happening more frequetly and that's not really good. I don't really even know what made me start thinking this way, but its been a year sence everything happened, almost, and i'm still a wreck. 

Nothing seems to be working.

I've been going to vintage, but that doesn't seem to be helping. I think i want to start going back to a Catholic service. Maybe going back to tradition will help.

Something has help. 

This needs to get better. like now

sorry for the downer, it needed to happen

RING DINNER IS 51 DAYS AWAY!

...i want some shoes.

I went to Marshalls today, i think that will probably be my best bet unless i find a super cool sale between now and then. I' ve been doing pretty well on saving my money all summer, so i'm trying not to spoil myself too much. But i really want to go shopping! Myabe i'll check out some forever 21 tomorow and Express.

Right now i'm in Officer Training, it's super fun. For real. I'm so excitted for all the socials this year, i hope it all works out well. I'm really nervous about the next one, but hopefully enough people will come so that it will cool. 

Ok there internet sucks here so i'm going to go.

but i'm SO ready for ring dinner

and CORN, tastes so good.

PS. there is NEVER anything wrong with looking your best 

LABOR DAY HERE I CCOME!

I can not wait for labor day weekend, sadly i alot of homework to do during it, kinda stinks. I really need to make sure i keep up my homework and keep on a good schedudle, i really do not want to get behind. I already have alot of long term assignments due, which have always been my problem. So i need to make sure to be on top of my shit! Big sis/lil sis first social went pretty well, sadly we made a TON of extra everything though, but i guess that thats okay. Atleast alot of people came. I just hope the rest of our socials will turn out okay, it is always hard to get alot of people to other socials.
My classes are good, ALL CLASSES for my major! So excited, its nice to be intrested in all my classes. Hopefully, I will even like my Housing Issues in Mexico class...hopefully. haha. This week i have also spent ALOT of money, I bought my Onyx :D only like 54 days or something. I also really need to buy some text books, and i got a big/lil t shirt, you should all get one!
Corn is soon...can't wait. CAN'T WAIT!

Class?

Classes start tomorow, that is pretty intence. I'm taking all ID classes for once, i'm SO excitted. I am so happy that most of my Gen Ed is out of the way. With the exception of Yoga. haha I'm pretty excitted. This year i'm going to make sure is great. We get our rings, Cornhuskin will be just AWESOME.
My room is almost all done! It looks awesome. I even figured out what to do with that DAMN extra chair...which might make its way to the parlor or something soon. Ok bed soon, i have to wake up...early.
not really first class is at 11.
but yeah
<3

Charleston PT 1

Hey everyone, Charleston is awesome. It's beautiful, the homes are beautiful, the parks are AMAZING, and the water ways are so pretty. Yesterday we went to the USS Yorkdown, which was actually pretty intresting. I loved seeing where everyone slept and everything, it was pretty cool. It was so hot though, its an aircraft carier, so we were on the deck looking at some planes and i thought i was going to die, i'm surprised i didn't get burned. We also got to go in a sub, which was pretty cool, it was so cramped in there though, i can't imagine staying in there for like 3-4 days at a time without being able to see unlight, that would suck. Then we drove around downtown for a bit and tried to get like familure with the area, its pretty nice. Then we got to the hotel...it's alright. It has a really nice view, execpt our balcony door doesn't open. It says its "permanetly closed for humidity reasons" BS. so rob took it apart and tonight we went out on the balcony, it was nice. The pool here is GREEN, gross greeen. not pretty ocean green. Rob refuses to go in. i don't quite blame him. Then we went to dinner at this place right on the river, watched a storm and had some good steak. Afterwords we walked around at the water, it was great.

Today we got up super late :) and went and had some lunch downtown. It was fun people watching, the downtown reminds me alittle of Kingstons downtown, this one is better though. Then we went shopping for awhile, i got the most amazing BCBG sweater shall, for 51 dollars. It was orginally 200. I was pretty execited. Of course it was the first thing i saw, but we walked around for a good 3 hours before i decided to actually buy it...go figure. We walked all the way down to the water and around and started to look for places to eat dinner. We found a cute place on king st. and had a great dinner and then walked around Marion Square. good day!
now i'm going to go read and get ready for the beach tomorow!!! I already checked and our hotel says its all ocean front rooms WITH opening balconies and hopefully a clear pool.

4 days till MC though, can't wait.
(execpt right now i'm totally not wanting to go back to NC at all )

persue

I'm having a pretty hard time deciding when is a good time to quit something and when you should stick with it. I always thought you were suposed to keep going with things, but you still have to know when its time to let something go. So how do you know the difference? It's pretty frustrating. I might have to actually make a pro/con list...lame-o.

On the brighter side, my boss said she wants my help alitte through out the school year, which is awesome! It means i've been doing a good job. Second, she said she trusted me to go pick out lights for a parade home...sweeet. I kinda hope i get side tracked though and can just go with her. Its been awhile sence i worked on that house, so it might be alittle difficult.

This weekend was back to school shopping, which wasn;t that excitting because i'm waiting until like wednesday to go to Target for the really fun stuff. But i did get quite an amazing dress from Urban Outfitters.

I can't wiat to wear it in Charleston, and i'm just so excitted to go. Spend a whole day at the beach, and see all the houses. Which reminds me that i need to get batteries and finish uploading my old photos from my camera. So i can take new ones. haha.
So that's about it, i just need to go to target now, and maybe get something cute from charleston.

PS. i need some ideas for welcome to Meredith presents.

SUMMER

So i havn't posted in forever. This summer has just been so time consuming and beyond action packed that i haven't had the time to really sit down and write, such a shame i know. haha

My internship has been going so well, i really like it. I love it really. My boss is super nice and has taught me so much about the business. I am having some trouble in making selections because i don't usually meet the clients she works with so I dont have a sence of their style, but hopefully it will go well. I would say get better but i really only have a week left, i've only starting selecting for her like two weeks ago. I got to work on a parade home, and recently i've been doing alot of work on a remodel in cary. They remodeled almost the whole house, so it was super cool to go from the selection process to the instal and to see how the home owners liked it. It has been pretty sureal.

I also went to Miami for my uncle's wedding, which was beautiful. The weather there was pretty nice, it really wasn't too hot while i was there, just alittle humid. I was out in the pool ALOT and spend alot of time drinking mojitos. I got to see my cousins for the first time in like a year and a half, which was so nice. They're the closest thing i have to siblings, so its always fun
.

We spent alot of a sunday shopping, so it was pretty fun, we went to some amazing outlets. I was lucky enough to get a kate spade purse and wallet. lovely. And then followed by more pool time and more drinking. It was a really great holiday, i was sad that rob wasn't able to go with me, but i had a ton of fun.

RSB has been good this summer, i got a raise. yaye. I'm trying to finsih the last two harry potters before i go back to school. I started buying books eailer this summer, but i would read them so fast during work because i had nothing else to do that it was causing quite the dent in my wallet. so i decided to re read some harry potters, you can never get too much of that. Speaking of which, JK is releasing a hary potter fairy tale book that Hermonie read in book 7. Super excitting!!!

I think thats about it. My last post was counting down the day until i was able t leave school and now i'm starting the new countdown.

18 hours until my last full day of work at RSB this summer
36 hours until tax free weekend shopping spree
6 days until i'm finsihed with my internship
6 days until i leave for charleston with rob
12 days until i move on to campus
18 days until freshmen, our little sis's, move in!
21 days uuntil classes start

SCARY
<3. promise i'll update soon!

Countdown

Six Days and 20 hours until i am Done and no longer surounded by girls.
Five Days until I can see my boyfriend every day
Three days until i go to the Dentist and get my cavities fixed
30 hours until good tv!
18 hours until i start my internship

It's ON

EMPIRE RECORDS

So while i was at home i was watching one of the MTV "extra" channels and Empire Records was on! i havn't seen that movie in so long. i think i may need to buy it. It is just amazing and uplifting and every one just gets through their day. All the different people group together and help eachother out, i love it.

some favoirte Quotes

"They're my special recipe... and you know what that means... Lots of sugar."
"Jane: Actually, his new album tested well among teenage males.
Lucas: Jane, did you compare the percentage of teenage male Rex Manning fans to the incidence of homosexuality amongst teenage males?"
"Well you can't kill me 'cause I'm already dead. And I talked to God, and she says, "Yo, wassup?" and she wants you to lose the gun."
:Joe, is it O.K. if I leave the couch? 'Cause I'm gonna leave the couch now, okay? My ass is falling asleep, so I gotta go. I'm leaving. "

everyone should go watch it.
plus the music kicks ass in it
<3.

so i need to post

So i havn't posted in awhile and it will probably be a while before i post agian.
MY life is going to be SOO hectic. haha.
i have i think like 2-3 projects
4 papers
and 3 finals
KIL LME NOW
i saw the ruins this weekend. it would've been really good if it wasn't so gross. if they had just taken out like two shots i would've been good. I really need some good horror movies back in my life. I'm going to see Prom Night as soon as it goes to the dollar fifty. haha. also 88 minutes and patholgy come out on friday. they look good.
Ohh and Tim Burton is doing alice and wonderland! filming starts in may...get excitted
i am
<3

Leaglize Me

Today in Rel Ethics we were talking about immigration and most importantly illgeal aliens. THe guest speaker we had to was very obvously all about some amensity and equal rights, which got me very frustrated. I know people should be treated equally but i think that deporting people who have not followed the law should be deported.

In 9th grade my mom and I almost got deported because we didn't fill out one form and my mom needed to test another nursing exam. It wasn't just a joke, oh haha we might get thrown out, it was five months of fear and sadness and worry for me and my mom. Not to mention the thousands of dollars my mother spent on fees and government crap just to get here in the first place. I think that to treat people equally you would have to kick people out who did not follow the law when they clearly knew it. It is not our responsiblity to make their lives better, if they want to come back and fill out the proper paper work that is fine, otherwise i do not think it is right.

It really scares me to think that all these people could be getting away with what the did when me and my mom tried to do everything the right way and still got punished. It is not fair, isn't that what we were fighting for?

3 years until i'm American. sweet.

blurt it out

sometime i just want to scream at the top of my lungs and its so hard to not crack when it is crunch time. I was looking at my Senior year book awhile ago and someones quote was like "real stength is not giving up when eeveryone else would understand if you did". And thats how i want to be, but it is the hardest thing to not curl up in a ball and cry for five hours.

Classes are definitely getting alot more demanding, i cannot wait until i'm done with them. I only really like my AutoCad class and maybe health. Rel Ethics, but most people dont realize that hey, i have 6 classes. I cant have all thing shit due at the same time. oh well. hopefully i will have the strength to keep it together for 5 more weeks.
Next year i'm getting a single room, i'm so excitted. I just need to get this whole job situation sorted out and i will feel much better.

sorry the blogs aren't very intresting lately, just trying to stay strong.

Banks are lame

I hate bank, they're pointless and money hungry. It drives me crazy that you have to pay to store your money somewhere safe. It drives me crazy. I wish i could just be five years old agian and have a piggy bank and then i wouldn't be in this freakin class that we're doing NOTHING in. I HATE business, its dumb, yout just learn how to make the rich richer and the poor poorer. It's so awful, not to mention my professor should really quit because he complains so god damn much. Today was going to be SUCH a good day and now i have to run around getting shit done and can't get anything done. I really just need summer to get here so i can save up lots of money and then take a vacation. I'm thinking Paris so i can shop and not stress anymore. I can't understand why banks just cut you down when you're trying so hard. It's killing me.

Good Spring Breakb

So, so far my break has been going pretty well. I applied for some jobs for the summer, and i am going to go visit the career center so hopefully this summer i can save up some money for ....ONYX. haha. I found my Vera Bradly umbrella, which was pretty much the highpoint so far. haha. It was in my car, yaye.
Yesterday I ran some errands and went to visit my mom. I got my dresses for formal and class day. Both of them i already had, so i saved money. I do have to get them both tailored. Then i went and watched three hours of Weeds. I love watching new shoes on DVD because you don't even have to wait for the next episode. That show is really good too, i can't wait for new teleivsion.
Today was really good. I went for a walk downtown with rob, which was just relaxing. It's getting pretty nice down there, it will be alot better once all the construction stops. Then we came back and made some steaks, YUM. Now i'm just hanging out and watching rob and his friends play halo. pretty nice.
tomorow= hard core work day.
hopefully
<3.

All nite

AHHH so last night? yesterday? today? was werid, confusing, long and bad.
I had alot of fun though. i can't really say how amazing it is to be up at 4 am and laughing for no real reason with your friend. and also probably the most amazing. running down the hall really fast for no reason, followed by laughing on the floor for 10 minutes? LOVE IT
And let me just say last night i realized how funny those stupid cat pictures are. They are just so funny, they're dumb and pointless and freaking amazing. I just want a cat now so i can take pictures of it. haha. THat would be fun.
well i am 18.5 hours away from relaxing. I do have work to do over break. I plan to organized all my binders, finish my ID project, read Emma, cross stitch, EcT. that would be fun.
maybe i should spring for a massage? haha
well only 28 minutes until, food, rob and sleeeeeep in that bed.
<3

i love MC

its been awhile

This month was rough. This week was kind of the whole climax of it too.
I have two projects due tomorow *one is just for health..not to bad)
have to get rob's mom's birthday present for saturday
two papers due on friday
and a test
gross!
i can't wait until saturday after work and i can just crash for 5 days. haha

I had a nap today for the first time during the 10am hour. It was lovely. i walked to class and i had lines all on my face.
it was worth it

GR!

Last night i was all proud of myself because I got all set up in the parlor to do my drafting homework. When i taped my drawings down the tape curled up! there was some coating on it or something. So i brought my light table out and taped it down to that. THEN the table was too wobbly, so i was so frustrated by that time that i just left and went to robs to use his kitchen table. i was so agrravated. Not to mention i lost my cam card!!! i really need to see a rainbow sometime today. that would make my day like 40x better.

Reasons i am not a fan of presidents day:
We still have classes
IT is raining
Highschools are closed...but RSB still has class...i still have to go to work
The bank is closed so i can't go deposit money
Gas prices are higher because the military has a long weekend
GR!

Hopefully today will get better!

Love is the Movement

Shes upset
Bad day
Heads for the dresser drawer to
drive her pain away
Nothing good can come of this.
She opens it theres nothing there
is only left over tears
Mom and dad had no right she screams
as the anger runs down both of her cheeks.

Then she closed her eyes
and found relief in a knife
the blood flows as she cries

All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Bite the lip just forget the bleeding

Curled up shes on the floor
relief left her she had hoped for something more
from it
He leans down to comfort her
She is weeping and He
wraps His arms around
and around and around and...
The deeper you cut
the deeper I hurt
The deeper you cut
it only gets worse

Now shes slowly opening...
new eyes...

Then she opened her eyes
and found relief through His life
and put down her knives

Then she opened her life
and found relief through His eyes
and put down
she put down her life

Tomorow is Feb. 13th. which is ranked very highly among the days where the most people commit sucide. Alot of people do not realize how big of a problem this is for alot of people. Some people just brush it off, some ignore it, and it is a serious problem amoung teenagers and young adults. Mostly happening with girls starting as early as 12-13 it really takes over and it is so serious that no one really wants to talk about it. When i went to LeaderShape this fall i wanted to start a program to promote awareness about this. I hope that anyone who reads this will think about it and try to help if they know someone who needs it.

more cherry topic tomorow i promise.
<3.

Thank you

Sometimes are the only two words i need to hear.
It is the worst feeling doing something for a few people and not one of them said thank you. It's very frustrating to not be appraicted and not being able to really say anything because it's not really your place.
I just don't think i'm goin to do that again.

In my business class right now, most borring hour of the day but at least i get blogging done. i really don have much to say,
Execpt for the fact i get to go HOME tomorow! I havn't been home in so long, had a home cooked meal, sat by the fire (woodburning) and do homework, and using my drafting table :).
not to mention i get to see my momma.
happy day.

Death might've been next...

Thursday started out SO good...
classes were ok. I skiped english so i could sleep longer in rob's bed...sometimes that bed just sucks me in. new sheets...so comfy. and then in ID the project is going ok but those people just drive me crazy, i'm glad i only have one studio this semester.
I went to bible study through Vintage21 with Jordan, that was super until...i got sick.
It was probably one of the worst nights in awhile. getting really sick at someones house i just met surounded by people i just met. I was glad Jordan was there, it helped out alot.
on the bright side
FEELING SO MUCH BETTER!
i'm going out tonight agian with rob and his friends for his birthday. it hopefully will be fun. haha
well i hope you all have a great day.!!
<3.

giving up

Today is rob's birthday! YAYE . I am going to lunch and dinner with him, i'm pretty excitted. haha. Today is also the first day of lent. I am giving up impulse shopping. If i see something i like i need to wait at least 24 hours before i buy it to see if i really need it.
Sadly i have a growing list of things i "need" haha
its super nice out today, i'm wearing a dress even if it is going to rain today. I have so much to do! but oh well, i really don't want to stress about it. i am doing finishing my section. haha
ok. gotta put on clothes now.
have a wonderful day <3.

oh Happy Day

So many things made me happy today...so here they are

-not being tired in Ethics
- Wearing my Jack's in February
- Blue sky
- Driving on the highway with the windows down and loud music
- Getting done with my Autocad assignment early
- Lunch with the suite
- surprising Rob before work
- long talk with roomie last night ( or early this morning depending how you look at it)

It is just such a night day out today, it could not get much better
<3.

SUPERSUNDAY

I'm watching the superbowl right now, not exactaly my number one moment of the day, but there are some really funny comericals. haha. Church was really good this morning, i'm really starting to like it. I woke up this morning and was pretty excitted to go and get up, which isn't usually the case on my one day to be able to sleep in. Hopefully i can go to night sevice next week.
It was so nice this morning, i just wanted to drive for like an hour up by Jordan lake with all my windows open, that would've been really great, execpt for the fact that i would have had to pay for gas...

MY TEAM IS LOSING! they aren't even my time, but i do want the giants to win, its still only 7 to 3, cray-cray. My semester is still going pretty well, i just have to put some more effort into my Business class, i should've beasted that last test i was just too lazy to study. And the proffessor had it the day after Alice...that's just lame.

oh well, i can still get the all A's that i want.
Maybe i'll update tomorow durring work, but they have actually had me working lately...
<3

Waiting is not all that it is cracked up to be.

The one thing i absoultly hate doing is waiting by the phone for a call. Does it really take ALL that much of work to pick up the phone and ask how someone's day is going? Or to write an email or send a freakin text message. It is not that hard, if you're thinking of me, let me know. So maybe you're not evening thinking about me, thats cool too. It is just frustrating when I try really hard to make everything nice for someone and they dont really thank me for someone. Or they kick me out when i'm working quietly just like they wanted. Sometimes i want to give up. Love wont let me give up though, its a cop out. I dont even want to give up, i just want someone to send me a message once and awhile to say that they're thinking of me and hope my day is going well.
oh well.

Sweet Life

Sometimes things just go so well. Even though right now, I'm pretty sickly, its great to know that some things will just work on their self. Whether its a new opportunity for me or a close friend, or even just having someone close to you let you know that they care. I'm only like 5 days away from pay day, and that is a wonderful feeling knowing that soon i will be able to go to bojangles just once. haha. I'm really hopeing for this upcomming change, that i can't really say much more about at this time, but it will be wonderful. I know money isn't everything, but sometimes it can really be helpful. I am usually happy, with or without money, i think its more about a change rather than the money.
Money cannot now make you happy, for example. Heath Ledger died...i mean what the hell? He seemed happy, he had everything he could've ever neeeded or wanted yet he still overdosed on pain killers. It is really sad. Obviously I don't know him, but to think that he felt so lonely that thats all he could think to do. Hopefully no one i know feels that lonely.
So all in all, things will work out most of the time, money can be helpful but is definitly not everything, if you're not happy before you have money, you wouldn't be happy after you have money.

Snow?

Wednesday afternoon my mom called to inform me that NCSU was opening two hours late on Thursday because of the threat of snow. Naturally I, and everyone else, assumed that we would be opening two hours late as well...seeing as we're right across the street. That night a few amazing people put our pj's on inside out and backwards and did a snow dance outside in the court yard. We were out the dancing for snow for a good 45 mins before someone called security on us. When i woke up in the morning and looked outside i saw...NOTHING no snow, no ice, not even frost. I did however lots of cold rain. So i check the website just in case. Let me tell you, Meredith College is MEAN, not only did we not have a delay, when we went to our school's home page in big yellow highlighted words said "CAMPUS ANNOUNCEMENT", so of course i got all giddy but i kept reading: "CAMPUS WILL OPERATE ON A NORMAL SCHEDULE." I was sad, so i was cold and wet and gross all day.
It is SUPPOSED to snow tomorow afternoon. we will see how that all works out, it would be pretty sweet though to see MC all covered in snow again.
Classes are going well but i'm definitly back, so much to catch up on already, that is probably what i should be doing right now, oh well. I really like most of my classes so far, except BUS 300, so very boring.
Cloverfield is tonight, i'm ready! i hope its good and not lame

oh goodness

So i've been sucked in to the blogging life. I am work and need a new work hobby. As much fun as jigzone.com is, it's starting to give me a headache. I like to ramble, i like to rant actually, and while i'm at work i like to day dream. Which I have found to be a very stupid thing, no real good can come of it. I really think that I should be very happy with the way my life is now, and not try to imagine something better. I know i will probably continue to day dream about my vacation i want in Mexico or Italy, and dream about how i want to design hotels...maybe in Mexico or Italy? see there I go again.
On another note; I think i know why i like Bojangles so much, I don't really eat much during the day and Bo's definitly had enough calories for the day. Its said that your body often craves what it needs, so maybe i just need fatty fried chicken sometimes, I'm pretty OK with that.