blurt it out

sometime i just want to scream at the top of my lungs and its so hard to not crack when it is crunch time. I was looking at my Senior year book awhile ago and someones quote was like "real stength is not giving up when eeveryone else would understand if you did". And thats how i want to be, but it is the hardest thing to not curl up in a ball and cry for five hours.

Classes are definitely getting alot more demanding, i cannot wait until i'm done with them. I only really like my AutoCad class and maybe health. Rel Ethics, but most people dont realize that hey, i have 6 classes. I cant have all thing shit due at the same time. oh well. hopefully i will have the strength to keep it together for 5 more weeks.
Next year i'm getting a single room, i'm so excitted. I just need to get this whole job situation sorted out and i will feel much better.

sorry the blogs aren't very intresting lately, just trying to stay strong.

Banks are lame

I hate bank, they're pointless and money hungry. It drives me crazy that you have to pay to store your money somewhere safe. It drives me crazy. I wish i could just be five years old agian and have a piggy bank and then i wouldn't be in this freakin class that we're doing NOTHING in. I HATE business, its dumb, yout just learn how to make the rich richer and the poor poorer. It's so awful, not to mention my professor should really quit because he complains so god damn much. Today was going to be SUCH a good day and now i have to run around getting shit done and can't get anything done. I really just need summer to get here so i can save up lots of money and then take a vacation. I'm thinking Paris so i can shop and not stress anymore. I can't understand why banks just cut you down when you're trying so hard. It's killing me.

Good Spring Breakb

So, so far my break has been going pretty well. I applied for some jobs for the summer, and i am going to go visit the career center so hopefully this summer i can save up some money for ....ONYX. haha. I found my Vera Bradly umbrella, which was pretty much the highpoint so far. haha. It was in my car, yaye.
Yesterday I ran some errands and went to visit my mom. I got my dresses for formal and class day. Both of them i already had, so i saved money. I do have to get them both tailored. Then i went and watched three hours of Weeds. I love watching new shoes on DVD because you don't even have to wait for the next episode. That show is really good too, i can't wait for new teleivsion.
Today was really good. I went for a walk downtown with rob, which was just relaxing. It's getting pretty nice down there, it will be alot better once all the construction stops. Then we came back and made some steaks, YUM. Now i'm just hanging out and watching rob and his friends play halo. pretty nice.
tomorow= hard core work day.
hopefully
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