Back

So now i offically feel like i am back in school

Projects are assigned

bank account is going down

and here i am...blogging

It's GOOD to be back.

It's good to be able to go shopping carlessly because you don't have "serious" bills to pay

it's good to be able to play hookie for a day and not have to "call in sick"

It's so good to be able to stay up late and sleep in

Its SOOO good to have the onyx paid for and Oct 20th here i come.

On the downside, now you're supposed to be independent. You can't depend on your parents anymore, you can't keep turning to other people to figure stuff out for you. And that scares the hell out of me. I donno if im strong enough to handle it on my own, handle anything really. Nothing is really scarier than being on your own, execpt not being able to control it. I don't really know where these thoughts come from, but they have been happening more frequetly and that's not really good. I don't really even know what made me start thinking this way, but its been a year sence everything happened, almost, and i'm still a wreck. 

Nothing seems to be working.

I've been going to vintage, but that doesn't seem to be helping. I think i want to start going back to a Catholic service. Maybe going back to tradition will help.

Something has help. 

This needs to get better. like now

sorry for the downer, it needed to happen