What?

Somewhere along the way lately I have totally lost myself. I wake up in the morning and am just so ashamed of the person i have become. The things that used to mean the world to me are starting to slip away and i am sinking into a bottomless pit with no way out. I can't remember the last time I woke up and i was already in a good mood. That used to happen so often. I really need to get back there, but i don't know if it's possible. How am I supposed to pick myself up out of this, i'm burried. Now that cornhuskin is over I don't even have an excuse for my distance. I want so badly to be with someone so badly right now. But i can't, I'm stuck. I just hope that someone knows how deeply sorry I am, and that one day I will be back to normal. One day all of this will be in the past and I will be able to see clearly agian. 

For now, i guess i should start trying to dig myself out of this mess.