All nite

AHHH so last night? yesterday? today? was werid, confusing, long and bad.
I had alot of fun though. i can't really say how amazing it is to be up at 4 am and laughing for no real reason with your friend. and also probably the most amazing. running down the hall really fast for no reason, followed by laughing on the floor for 10 minutes? LOVE IT
And let me just say last night i realized how funny those stupid cat pictures are. They are just so funny, they're dumb and pointless and freaking amazing. I just want a cat now so i can take pictures of it. haha. THat would be fun.
well i am 18.5 hours away from relaxing. I do have work to do over break. I plan to organized all my binders, finish my ID project, read Emma, cross stitch, EcT. that would be fun.
maybe i should spring for a massage? haha
well only 28 minutes until, food, rob and sleeeeeep in that bed.
<3

i love MC

its been awhile

This month was rough. This week was kind of the whole climax of it too.
I have two projects due tomorow *one is just for health..not to bad)
have to get rob's mom's birthday present for saturday
two papers due on friday
and a test
gross!
i can't wait until saturday after work and i can just crash for 5 days. haha

I had a nap today for the first time during the 10am hour. It was lovely. i walked to class and i had lines all on my face.
it was worth it

GR!

Last night i was all proud of myself because I got all set up in the parlor to do my drafting homework. When i taped my drawings down the tape curled up! there was some coating on it or something. So i brought my light table out and taped it down to that. THEN the table was too wobbly, so i was so frustrated by that time that i just left and went to robs to use his kitchen table. i was so agrravated. Not to mention i lost my cam card!!! i really need to see a rainbow sometime today. that would make my day like 40x better.

Reasons i am not a fan of presidents day:
We still have classes
IT is raining
Highschools are closed...but RSB still has class...i still have to go to work
The bank is closed so i can't go deposit money
Gas prices are higher because the military has a long weekend
GR!

Hopefully today will get better!

Love is the Movement

Shes upset
Bad day
Heads for the dresser drawer to
drive her pain away
Nothing good can come of this.
She opens it theres nothing there
is only left over tears
Mom and dad had no right she screams
as the anger runs down both of her cheeks.

Then she closed her eyes
and found relief in a knife
the blood flows as she cries

All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Bite the lip just forget the bleeding

Curled up shes on the floor
relief left her she had hoped for something more
from it
He leans down to comfort her
She is weeping and He
wraps His arms around
and around and around and...
The deeper you cut
the deeper I hurt
The deeper you cut
it only gets worse

Now shes slowly opening...
new eyes...

Then she opened her eyes
and found relief through His life
and put down her knives

Then she opened her life
and found relief through His eyes
and put down
she put down her life

Tomorow is Feb. 13th. which is ranked very highly among the days where the most people commit sucide. Alot of people do not realize how big of a problem this is for alot of people. Some people just brush it off, some ignore it, and it is a serious problem amoung teenagers and young adults. Mostly happening with girls starting as early as 12-13 it really takes over and it is so serious that no one really wants to talk about it. When i went to LeaderShape this fall i wanted to start a program to promote awareness about this. I hope that anyone who reads this will think about it and try to help if they know someone who needs it.

more cherry topic tomorow i promise.
<3.

Thank you

Sometimes are the only two words i need to hear.
It is the worst feeling doing something for a few people and not one of them said thank you. It's very frustrating to not be appraicted and not being able to really say anything because it's not really your place.
I just don't think i'm goin to do that again.

In my business class right now, most borring hour of the day but at least i get blogging done. i really don have much to say,
Execpt for the fact i get to go HOME tomorow! I havn't been home in so long, had a home cooked meal, sat by the fire (woodburning) and do homework, and using my drafting table :).
not to mention i get to see my momma.
happy day.

Death might've been next...

Thursday started out SO good...
classes were ok. I skiped english so i could sleep longer in rob's bed...sometimes that bed just sucks me in. new sheets...so comfy. and then in ID the project is going ok but those people just drive me crazy, i'm glad i only have one studio this semester.
I went to bible study through Vintage21 with Jordan, that was super until...i got sick.
It was probably one of the worst nights in awhile. getting really sick at someones house i just met surounded by people i just met. I was glad Jordan was there, it helped out alot.
on the bright side
FEELING SO MUCH BETTER!
i'm going out tonight agian with rob and his friends for his birthday. it hopefully will be fun. haha
well i hope you all have a great day.!!
<3.

giving up

Today is rob's birthday! YAYE . I am going to lunch and dinner with him, i'm pretty excitted. haha. Today is also the first day of lent. I am giving up impulse shopping. If i see something i like i need to wait at least 24 hours before i buy it to see if i really need it.
Sadly i have a growing list of things i "need" haha
its super nice out today, i'm wearing a dress even if it is going to rain today. I have so much to do! but oh well, i really don't want to stress about it. i am doing finishing my section. haha
ok. gotta put on clothes now.
have a wonderful day <3.

oh Happy Day

So many things made me happy today...so here they are

-not being tired in Ethics
- Wearing my Jack's in February
- Blue sky
- Driving on the highway with the windows down and loud music
- Getting done with my Autocad assignment early
- Lunch with the suite
- surprising Rob before work
- long talk with roomie last night ( or early this morning depending how you look at it)

It is just such a night day out today, it could not get much better
<3.

SUPERSUNDAY

I'm watching the superbowl right now, not exactaly my number one moment of the day, but there are some really funny comericals. haha. Church was really good this morning, i'm really starting to like it. I woke up this morning and was pretty excitted to go and get up, which isn't usually the case on my one day to be able to sleep in. Hopefully i can go to night sevice next week.
It was so nice this morning, i just wanted to drive for like an hour up by Jordan lake with all my windows open, that would've been really great, execpt for the fact that i would have had to pay for gas...

MY TEAM IS LOSING! they aren't even my time, but i do want the giants to win, its still only 7 to 3, cray-cray. My semester is still going pretty well, i just have to put some more effort into my Business class, i should've beasted that last test i was just too lazy to study. And the proffessor had it the day after Alice...that's just lame.

oh well, i can still get the all A's that i want.
Maybe i'll update tomorow durring work, but they have actually had me working lately...
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