Only Child Syndrome

I've been watching Brothers and Sisters all week, and crying pretty much every episode, i know i'm a sap. oh well. This past episode or two really got me thinking about life, i know TV speaks to me.
One this girl was making tea, and she talked about how just making tea can make someone feel better. It's just a ritual that makes you remember happier times. I totally get that. I think it is so great that after a long awful day I decide to go for a cup of hot tea instead of a beer or something. Pretty much every really good and bad moment in my life involves a cup of hot tea. My favorite memories growing up were coming home from school and having a bagel and a cup of tea, with or without my cousins. It was just so relaxing and calming. Then when I have gotten some of the worst news of my life, you make a pot of tea and sit together. It's calming. I think it's time to add a new mug to my collection.
Secondly, that girl who was making tea was this illegitimate child from their dead fathers past. Sometimes I feel like I am missing a whole half of my personality. One side It's like I was able to totally become my own person. I wasn't really forced into becoming anyone I didn't want to. Sometimes it is just hard to not wonder about who else is out there. It's scary.
Sometimes these things just kinda sneak through the cracks, and its becoming less and less. I'm waiting for the day where it wont effect me.
<3.