lost.

I really don't know what i'm going anymore. I feel like i'm just going through motions and nothing is actually getting done. I don't feel like i'm moving forward. Worst of all is i feel like i'm losing everyone around me because i don't have time to make a phone call let alone meet for diner, I can't keep going like this. School could not come sooner. So i could get some free time back (yeah right). I just don't know what to relay on any more. Everything seems to always come back to me because i'm not putting in enough effort, but i have to work. I don't really know what else to do, but something needs to drastically change or I am going to lose it very soon.